A simple mail from HER

"i can feel our daughter growing stronger. her turns, punches and kicks are so forceful .... they make feel like I am having stitches sometimes"

The feeling - indescribable. A million bubbles bursting in anxiety, hope and pride.

I love YOU. And you.

The perennial excitement

The typical question du jour in the company of close friends is the same:

“Are you guys excited?”

It really got me thinking. Excited? We definitely are. However, my excitement is tempered with a tinge of worry. I’m worried that I’m not good responsible mature enough a father. Worried too about the vagaries in life, and that if anything untoward were to happen to me, these two loves of my life would not have someone to fall back on. Despite securing relative financial stability and adequate insurance coverage, I have always taken it upon myself to be the rock that Sonia (and in future, Erica) required.

When I learnt that Sonia was expecting, my first reaction was that of unbridled happiness. I was happy that my beloved maternal grandmother was a tai-po and my parents both could join the fabled ranks of the 50-ish grandparents. I was happy that the next stage in our lives could come so early, and that Sonia and I were at an age whereby we still remembered what it was like to be young.

And then came the first questions from well-meaning friends and colleagues –

“Wah, so young ar!”
“So fast! Are you all ready?”
“But you just started out in your career leh.”

Each question sowed a seed of doubt in my faith that we were ready. Was I really ready? Were we ready to nurse, inculcate and educate another individual totally dependent on our support and guidance? I pride myself as being a logical, level-headed and mature person, but dealing with matters of emotion, I am frequently at a loss.

Are we… Was I ready?

All I wish is for Erica to tell us, 28 years down the road that indeed you both were, dearest Mum and Dad.

A very long hiatus...

It's almost two years since my last post, and plenty (both good and bad) have happened in the interim. The following timeline is a brief summary of my life since the much-cherished Shanghai trip...

• Started work at PwC on 7 July 2008
  
• Graduated from SMU in 13 July 2008
• Met a whole bunch of new people (Amin, Chee, Zee, WZ [who is now Ou Weiming's girlfriend], Raymond [Mr 3%], Ee Wah, Daniel, Rex and LKL)
  
• Saw Audrey May May get married in September 2008 (She's now the proud mother of one)
• Grew very much closer to Koof, Ra, Jing, Huimin, Janice, Gina, Hailing and to a much lesser extent before he quit the H-monster, Zhong
  
• Proposed to my beloved (26 December 2008) at Crowne Plaza Hotel with the invaluable assistance of the people above
• Celebrated the graduation of my batch (one year after my own) at Peach Garden OCBC Centre on 9 July 2009
• Attended my first (and last) PwC Fiesta in October 2009
• Tendered my resignation in the very same month (after seeing Wilson get his Maggie Mee)
• Left PwC on 6 November 2010 - it was the SPA away day as well
  
• Joined G** on 16 November 2010
• Went for my first overseas trip - Phuket with HER in January 2010
• Lost a loved one (Ah Ba on 19 March 2010 - exactly 8 years to the day after Ah Ma passed away) - a very painful and sudden bereavement... the gratitude I feel for his care in my formative years spurs me to do the same for his daughter
• Went for my 2nd trip to Bintan with HER in April 2010
• Went for our wedding photoshoot on 20 May 2010
• Bought our matrimonial bed and sofa set from Sealy and a local retailer on 21 May 2010
  

This has been a turbulent 2 years for me, and the only constant has been HER steadfast support, as has always been through these 9-plus years. For that, I will have no one else but HER as my wife. I'm looking forward to our photos and 18 September 2010, the day that we will be legally man and wife.

Pictures are available on Facebook, and I know that these memories, however painful, will be an indelible part of my journey through life.

For YOU on YOUR anniversary

Well, not quite, cos our anniversary's quite some time back, or away, depending on how we see it.

Anyway, a nice surprise (*burp*) from HER, and a much-belated card to match.

However wrong the wordings might be.















Here's to you US
The world's impressed!
Togetherness
is what you WE do best.

Guess what it ended off with?

Merry congratulations.

Indeed. *smirk*

And I love you, too.